Sometimes I wonder what I’m doing. Why I’m doing this. And then I realize, I’m scared . Scared of being alone, scared of what will happen if I ever decide to do it. This has been all I have know for 5+ years. Everything has changed in such a short time. What has caused this change in you? You seem to think nothing has but subtly everything has. I notice it. You might not but I have. I don’t think I can trust you anymore, or ever again. This hurts. All I want is what I know back, this you is what I don’t know.